Hello Martyr, Please Remember Your Name Isn’t Jesus Christ Youre Not Sacrificing Yourself For Anyone
There is nothing lower in this life than liars and manipulators of the truth. This is why the snake has no legs and must crawl on his belly. But they have spines and that’s more than I can say for some. Surely some will feign ignorance and claim no such thing because really, what is lying? Of course it is not the omitting of key facts and details regarding what truly happened or the outcome of things. Surely, omission cannot cause the whole world to collapse about you. Omission is the cloak of cowards, one you’ve quite readily swathed yourself in. You’ve pulled it around your body and over your head and created a shield which little can penetrate. So totally wrapped up in themselves, some can even become convinced that they are above others because what they did was “for the best” and “for others interests” rather than their own selfish fucking egomaniacal self perpetuating agenda. Having a sacrificial attitude just makes you an asshole not a saint.

Sit down. You have no place.

Here is the real issue at hand: You are a shadow not a person. Not even a shell. You can’t fill in an outline with something you’re lacking. Substance: you don’t have any.

More than anything I was in your corner rooting for your happiness though blind eyes and deaf ears have been turned to such things. You wouldn’t know the whole story because you never asked for it— but that just wouldn’t be in line with the guise of self flagellation put on prove supposed innocence.

For one with accusations, you sure provide others with a lot of ammo. And here’s my silver bullet: only cowards and fucking bastards ask people to lie for them to help perpetuate the fictitious world they created wherein they can have their cake and eat it too because they have so many chains they can yank for just about anyone they’d like and have them puppet along the responses and actions they can expect. “Tell him you don’t know,” aren’t the words of friends because friends would never ask you to be anything less than your best self—and lying has never been smiled upon.

Honesty and apologies are the language of lovers, of friends, of saints, of anyone worth knowing. You simulate fluency but really you’re spewing venom and garbage and falsities from your lips. Try clearing your throat and washing out your mouth. It won’t help with the fact that you’re completely useless but at least all the shit you spew might reek a little less.

What a loss. I would have given you the shirt off my back if you’d asked for it.

Now I wouldn’t give you the means to end your misery if you asked.